all the things you'll never know
are the lies you used to doubt
you start to see the truth
when i open up my mouth

but it's too dark to speak
i feel you next to me
i'm a fucking fool
if i can ruin this

(if there's a hell it exists for me)
(and i'm never coming back again)
(if there's a hell it exists for me)
(and i'll never get it back again)

if there is a hell it exists for me
if there is a hell it exists for me
if there is a hell it exists for me
you told me through grit teeth

you told me (if there is a hell)
you loved me

all the things you'll never know
are the myths you used to doubt
you cut my giant pupils
black and tripping on the couch

i was an object
i was no match
you told me so yourself
you slammed the door and broke the latch

[total breakdown]

more than you'll ever know
it watched me as i slept
slithered up into the darkest corner
and held itself

more than you'll ever know
i wept as it loomed
meaning no harm
but holding so tight

more than you'll ever know
i wept
total breakdown
total breakdown

totalled me

"he thinks backwards in milliseconds, a life he could've had, but the spiral he exists in is now. he's hitting the bottom. if only this path extended farther, prolonging his demise. he sees no end, past his deaths he sees no end."