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falling outta time
03:28
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sometimes you laugh when i say funny things
besides that i know there's not much to care about
if there's no such thing as love
we'd say we thought there was and we'd leave it at that when you--
(what the fuck)
she don't worry about me too much anymore
i found her pictures out and scattered on the bathroom floor
where the trail of stones led me i couldn't say
but she found me safe there in your hands
(i love you)
(i love you)
(i love you)
(sleeping bag)
"caught in a trap of fatal consequence, the heart thief stopped and looked the woman in her eyes. he knew it was coming he just didn't know when. he looked once at the phantom wind in the treetops, then to the gun, and then into the camera, feeling everything all at once, as ghostly fingers--"
one last dance
i can't connect
i'm too fucked up to be here
don't look at my face
one last dance
i can't connect
i'm too fucked up to be here
don't look at my face
i am so ashamed of myself some nights
"'there is a hell existing in our daily lives,' the heart theif broke his last words into the night. "and one day you will get there too, and i will know because you will tell me.
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he will tell everyone.'"
the street signs stood up to all the dark
bending down at a broken pile of glass
i saw them print my name up on the boards
my head is running but my body stands still
it's hot and dark and i'm wearing black clothes
my friends are dead and the shops are all closed
walking up and down empty street
looking for someone to tell me where to go
when you walk this way
you get far enough
that there is no turning back
and i thought i could recognize that
but i'm too far down
i'm too far gone
i'm too fucked up
i'm too far down
sometimes, when i feel alone
i try to rip the worst parts of me out
parade them demons all around the town
and lock them up before i come back down
then sometimes, when i feel alone
i flay big chunks of skin off my face
did that make me pretty now?
did that make me better now?
if you push yourself
you'll get far enough
that there is no going back
and i thought i could recognize that
but i'm too far down
i'm too far gone
i'm too fucked up
i'm too far down
a feeling like i wanna combust
sometimes i wanna self destruct
i had a thirst
for my own blood
are no innocent bystanders
when i opened my head on the asphalt
when you saw me grinding all my teeth down
when you caught me grinding my teeth down
if you let yourself
get far enough
you will never find your way back
i thought i could recognize that
but i'm too far down
please help me up
don't leave me here
i'm so far down
[crowd of people]
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all the things you'll never know
are the lies you used to doubt
you start to see the truth
when i open up my mouth
but it's too dark to speak
i feel you next to me
i'm a fucking fool
if i can ruin this
(if there's a hell it exists for me)
(and i'm never coming back again)
(if there's a hell it exists for me)
(and i'll never get it back again)
if there is a hell it exists for me
if there is a hell it exists for me
if there is a hell it exists for me
you told me through grit teeth
you told me (if there is a hell)
you loved me
all the things you'll never know
are the myths you used to doubt
you cut my giant pupils
black and tripping on the couch
i was an object
i was no match
you told me so yourself
you slammed the door and broke the latch
[total breakdown]
more than you'll ever know
it watched me as i slept
slithered up into the darkest corner
and held itself
more than you'll ever know
i wept as it loomed
meaning no harm
but holding so tight
more than you'll ever know
i wept
total breakdown
total breakdown
totalled me
"he thinks backwards in milliseconds, a life he could've had, but the spiral he exists in is now. he's hitting the bottom. if only this path extended farther, prolonging his demise. he sees no end, past his deaths he sees no end."
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safe to keep (buried)
04:03
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(the party starts without us)
he's looking for a ride
to the empty side of town
he wants to go to sleep
kicked up dust from the asphalt
sidewalks until he's tired and finds a place to stop
there's no breath left in the chest
friends have all passed on
under a thin slab of concrete
withered holding something precious gold
buried with the family
we'll bury him in time
prayers hold their nothing and muscles
shrill dissolving makes a sound that only children hear
the trauma in their memories kept safe for some
great something opened only when there's no one near to fear
one day all that concrete will be repurposed
and used to build a statue for someone great we will never meet
under a grass so green with lyme disease
skeletons holding something safe to keep
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the hermit
04:39
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heart thief don't wake up
don't go outside
don't think about tomorrow or where you'll be
you'll be right here with me
(with me
until the end of time)
dancing in circles whipping your neck back
in ecstasy all of me
hot silverware every
where is nowhere there
no sunlight no daylight
the moon lit his casket
poor dumb boy you're gonna kill yourself
can't you see
oh come, come dance in circles
with me
the only way out is up, to your head
squeeze that trigger and now you're dead
false hope is all you know how to give
it's all you can get
i lied once and drank for it
the lamp lit up the hermit
no daylight no moon light
no sunshine not here
"'you can't get away that easily, this is something you can't run from, no one can run from,' this is what she said before he looked away. he bit the bullet. she buried him next to her dogs in the early morning dirt and heat, and even though she swore she wouldn't, she cried; sitting there on his grave."
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surround me
04:17
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they're all on their way out
meeting each other alone
roll down your windows
wind coming in starts to moan
overlapping itself
falling deep out of time
running out of time
when they shut down the function
we make a break for the hills
he flips out his pockets
and we start to chewing up pills
now he's telling me stories
but i can't follow what's real
thin walls all surround me
and i'm laying my head on the wheel
laughing over myself
i'm falling deep out of time
running out of time
i think i'll run away from myself for a while
they're all on their way out
but some were just here for the wine
loose banter and chit chat
it makes me start losing my mind
crash into the restrooms
i lose my whole sense of time
white walls all surround me
and i get locked in for the night
stars and planes overhead
and i'm falling deep out of time
surround me
down in the dark
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7. |
untitled track
03:15
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some god: you'll be free from the addiction, you will lose interest in all relationships tied to the worst parts of your humanity-- tied to the worst parts of your addiction, you will turn your hands inside out and touch your heart.
some Sinner: when he looks at the people walking on the sidewalk below his window, he wonders what their lives are like. what is it like to be the black-haired woman on the cell phone? where do the kids on their bikes go to ride when fall ends and winter is here? and just like that winter is here, and there is nobody to think about. and there's nothing to do but drink, and pass out on the pile of mail, and drink, and wake up missing days, and smoke, writing letters you'll never send, and smoke, and wire yourself to the other person stranded in the house, and sleep, and shit, and breathe, and eat where you shit, and don't breathe anymore when you sleep, and run, and lie, and hide, and cry, and burn, and him, and you, and her, and them, and then when, and your, and live, and kiss, and bite, and cut, and fuck, anything but love, and die, and drink, and smoke, and ash, and die, and drink, and smoke, and ash, then it's fall again, hey, it's fall again.
some god: you'll be free from all superficial human desire. you'll never worry about your appearance or anyone else's ever again, and all it takes--
you will enter the void kicking and screaming.
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waiting for the
day to end
glued to my
little window
i'll never make an excuse
i won't bother
to be there
what a waste of time
love to fall
asleep again
nobody can see me
undress my wound
(i won't bother)
waiting for the
wait to end
nobody can see me
forfeit
waiting for the
blood to stop
head's in the toilet
my mind's flushed
i never made an excuse
i didn't break
any promise
when i wake i'll feel fine
love to hold your
hand and cry
someday they'll take me
alive
"she keeps it in a shoebox on a shelf in her closet... and one day she'll use it again, or maybe she will bury it with him, next to her dogs, next to her family, with her heart, and her memories. we kill the things we love when we have to before they swallow us alive. this hell we exist in knows no ending in death, just as her memories will feel no ending in death,
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just as the heart thief will breathe his words into the night air, beyond death, once again..."
don't cut away yet
i'm still getting up
from the night you threw most
of my shit out in the yard
it's a sight to behold
at 11 years old
and it's one that he keeps
in his chest
one day i'll be framed
on a mantle with her
our legs hang down
kicking the curb
so what, we lie through our teeth
to everybody we meet
they don't bat an eye
move on with their lives
it's a shitty movie you've seen
you smile and i sneak a peek
at your face red and glowing
in the theatre light
a memory so deep
one i hold safe to keep
all the bad times are going down
round and round my little head
all the bad times are going down
round and round
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[credits roll]
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