it’s another scared kid behind the kit crushed under the streetlights and smoking fast on the highway and taking a break in the hill mama’s on her way to liquor store in her head she watched a black screen his doggy ate a pipe dream and his girlfriend knew the ending he could look up at office buildings reach out and touch the pain birds another late night another late night how could they stand it under pressure under fire under ground to know the ending to see through to what is coming around another morning after spent in dread hunched over the nightlight in his head it was a bar fight he hoped that death was writing invites someone’s doing something at a place with something or someone or other it’s a pattern it’s a formula it is mapped out like the stars he could look up and cut his arm reach down and pull the bones out still staring at the long night not flinching or eating pain he could look up and crush his bones reach down deeper and pull the soul still staring at the long night not flinching or eating pain how could they stand it under pressure under fire under ground to know the ending and see through to what is coming around how could they stand it under pressure under fire under ground to know the ending and see through to what is coming around

i’ll call a lightbulb flicker a god and then the police ask them if hell still burns i’m just looking out for you glorious light of nothing shining down on me glorious light of nothing emerges from your dead face if it’s hot enough for you then it’s hot enough for me i’m in a cell phone tower looking for your hanging tree if it’s hot enough for you then it’s hot enough for me i’m in a cell phone tower looking for your hanging tree nicotine stain on my brain a reminder of the best of worst times the best of worst times i spent all my retrospection on glorious light of nothing talking down to me glorious light of nothing shining out of your empty eyes if it’s hot enough for you then it’s hot enough for me i’m in a cell phone tower looking for your hanging tree if it’s hot enough for you then it’s hot enough for me i’m in a cell phone tower looking for your hanging tree

let the melanchoir push the punk band off stage they’ll set up their gear and face the parking lot firing squads they’ll empty your chest and stitch you back up i will buy their song so they can do it all over again and i can feel them replacing you in my skin o yeah i can feel them replacing you in my skin o yeah i can feel them replacing you in my skin o yeah I can feel them replacing you in my skin ripped my head out of the burning sand when i gave up looking for lost memories i ripped my throat out i ripped your throat out we ripped god’s throat out and swallowed her pride broke the harmony we broke the harmony broke the harmony loop too many times i broke the harmony broke the harmony broke the harmony loop one too many times god won’t fix it sorry won’t fix it and blood won’t fix it we may as well not event try a child won’t fix it and love sure won’t fix it if blood don’t fix it why even try? can’t you hear that noose tightly breaking you? come join the melanchoir join the melanchoir can’t you feel your brother’s gun reach for you? join the melanchoir come join the melanchoir can’t you taste your medicine cabinet drinking you? come join the melanchoir join the melanchoir can’t you breathe? that garage door slamming you? come join the melanchoir come join the melanchoir

fired one into the water tower fired one into the medicine man fired one into the water tower fired one into the post man nothing is coming it’s your chance run run run run run like the wind boy run run run run run to the last dance bees won’t stop stinging there’s bees on the highway and cars on the back of your neck swallowed a bullet and washed it down with liquid erasers and chemicals swallowed a bullet and shot it down an eye-eating spiral of black string flesh eating spiders and pipe dreams the air stopped delivering my screams stomaching chevy headlight beams ripping and tearing as brights gleam dogs won’t stop barking there’s dogs on the highway there’s dogs on the back of your neck [everything is fucked] everything is fucked i wanna give up now everything is fucked every one is dead to me oh dear god i wanna kill a memory i wanna hold those few dear to me i wanna climb that fucking hanging tree oh god i wanna kill a memory

everyday is another day spent spinning my wheels i’m always counting seconds in the morning and i’m losing the feels never sad again never sad again my head is so heavy oh my god i’m gonna collapse shiny in the sink and in your head i think we relapsed i’m never sad again i’m never sad again how to never be apart from a throbbing piece of chopped-off-you when i look into the mirror i see nothing but never sad again i’m never sad again when i wake up in the night shit scaredless i am dreaming come true please pull the phone cord tight around my neck i won’t tell them it is you you can stab me in the back with my best friends no nothing is new you can eat my hair and spit me out and keep my fingers to chew i can fuck off if you want go and try out a new end i’m never sad again i'm never sad again never sad again

roll that wheel forward and lose yourself forget about the scream of the tracks let the hiss fill your head fall asleep for awhile gettin drunk on the sound of her voice again as you picture better times and pictures leave the world behind where it just stays petrified boys will be boys will be terrified when they see her the volume of hell will be multiplied if you leave her roll the wheel backwards and come back down remembering the shake beneath your feet the murmur of godless heathens slows your breathin as the storm seems to brace itself and we swirl into under sail and the noise leaves the world behind where it becomes petrified and the boys will be boys will be terrified when they see her the volume of hell will be multiplied if you leave her the boys will be boys will be terrified when they see her the volume of hell will be multiplied if you leave her the volume of hell will be multiplied

i tried to tell myself i wanted it i tried to kill myself i wanted it i tried to love myself i wanted it i tried to tell myself i wanted it i tried to guilt myself i wanted it i tried to change myself i wanted it i tried to stay myself i wanted it i tried to tell myself i wanted it and now she’s in my skin and loving it she tried to tell me that i wanted it she tried to tell them that i wanted it i tried to frame myself i wanted it i sold my soul for reparations i sold my soul for a clean slate i sold my soul for a band aid i tried to tell myself i wanted it i tried to kill myself i wanted it i tried to love myself i wanted it i tried to loathe myself i wanted it i tried to tell myself i wanted it i tried to change myself i wanted it i tried to stay myself i wanted it (in my skin) i wanted something but this wasn’t it i wanted nothing but the first kiss i tried to tell myself i wanted it i tried to kill myself i wanted it and now she’s in my skin and loving it i’m suffocating under what i missed i’m only living in the present tense i’m only living in the present tense i tried to fuck myself i wanted it i sold my soul for trepidation i sold my soul to become powerless i sold my soul for something meaningless i tried to tell myself i wanted it i tried to guilt myself i wanted it i tried to change myself i wanted it i tried to stay myself i wanted it i wanted something but this wasn’t it i wanted nothing but the first kiss i'm suffocating under what i missed i sold my soul for trepidation i sold my soul to become powerless i sold my soul for something meaningless to fuck me over was so negligent to leave me lying in my pool of piss to put my filthy body in the ground i wanted you to quit this shit and so i told myself i wanted it i put my head down and i walked through it like a long night i got so depressed like a long night i felt the stress like a long night you know i never left i’m still rotting at the brink of it i’m still rotting at the brink of it i’m still retching at the thought of it and now she’s in my skin and loving it and now she’s in my skin and loving it and she’s still in my skin

sometimes you get so off you just can’t speak to me sometimes you get so dark an endless sea beneath your tired feet blistered dirty fingers are about to break i wish that i could take your pain away sometimes i go so nowhere i can’t find my way back home in the depths of suburban hell i wonder aimlessly back through the snow following footprints left by some other guy i’ll never know i wanna taste the fire of one more summer before i go sometimes the river’s so deep that i can’t think to sink or swim sometimes it gets so shallow i can’t help but pull you in as you leave your tired feet blistered dirty fingers about to break let me try and fail to take your pain away

i couldn’t go to sleep and in the silent space i rolled over and sunk into hell’s arms i saw satan’s face i flipped your picture down i cried myself to sleep on a busy street where you abandoned me woke up and got so high i floated into your low i tasted chunks of the sky in the hair of the dog i burned your picture and cried cried myself to sleep it drowned me in the deep god could not hear me scream i couldn’t go to sleep and in your hollow space i saw through to what was coming around i saw the winding hands of fate i flipped your picture down i got too scared to sleep called you on the phone asked you to marry me i cried myself to sleep i cried myself to sleep i cried myself to sleep i cried myself to sleep [memory loop] i hated myself to some punk band in the woods sat on a big wooden casket and almost died coughed my lungs out and flinched but i wished you were there you’re friends were there i was there i was sort of there but i wished you were there god i wish i could kill a memory oh god i wish i could kill a memory so bad