if i ever get scared suppose i lose my way and i need you so much how will i know you're there how will i know it's you how will i know you're there how will i find you

it is never coming back for the sake of all good things for the letters in my spine for the sake of all good things even when i'm dead and dirt is what i breathe your blanket's getting cold will you still love me? everybody's target is slowly getting smaller everyone's been asking what has happened to me i don't have the heart to tell them i died so long ago if friends were really there for me wouldn't they already know? so i am never looking back i didn't need to learn a thing i don't wanna solve my problem i think i like the suffering even when i'm dead and my soul is set free you can catch me in your shadow will you still love me? everybody's target is slowly getting smaller everyone's been asking what's happened to me i don't have the guts to tell them i died so long ago and if friends were really there for me wouldn't they already know? if friends were always there for me wouldn't they already know friends were never really there for me wouldn't they already know? will you still will you still love me still love me

i can't sleep walk around walk around walk around walk around walk around walk around i'm covered in ink rolled out on the page i squirm in my sleep infected with the plague they spit when they speak they walk when they sleep they kiss out their teeth they wallow beneath me and when you face a consequence you'll look it in the eyes long deserted straightaway talking in your sleep and when you walk away from lost you'll find yourself surprised half a heart is wasted walking in your sleep i can't sleep walk around walk around walk around walk around walk around walk around talkinginyoursleep talkinginyoursleep talkinginyoursleep talkinginyoursleep walkinginyoursleep walkinginyoursleep i can't sleep walk around walk around walk around walk around walk around walk around

snowman surrounded by water oh all of his friends we're here for you now he's going going gone he's going going home he's moving moving on he's moving right along lovers play for keeps they say read and weep there's nothing left of you oh on the cold crack of pavement in dark hallways she shows herself to you storm cloud dress and dancing shoes in dark hallways she comes back to you storm cloud dress and skin is see-through here's to all the times you'll never have again here's to all the time they'll refund in the end lonely insufferable people oh oh making friends they're not so lonely now he's going going gone he's going going home he's moving moving on he's singing you this song in dark hallways she comes down in the night blood on her lips and blood on her tights in dark hallways she never follows through storm cloud dress and dancing shoes

not unloved revolved adherence to one alone as the love of a life passed on a life passed on all my love is gone quit while you can before it's too late not unloved but not on a date run while you can before it's too late where did everybody go these moments are not quiet these moments are not real they don't last forever i learned how to feel these moments are not quiet these moments are not real they don't last forever i learned how to feel when you're gone i will still love you but what will i do when i am without you

poured myself out you drank me up learned less about life and even less about love when we fell in love the birds sang truths heard wedding bells saw lawyers too this bond we share is broke for now there's a world out there i'm going round to face my fears what turns me on this idle life is soon long quiet little deaths talking about wrath leaving little space open another window let it all out hold it all in quiet little death of the earth and moon and stars and everyone pretty little game pretty riding slack hell is where it's at quiet little death of everything (you know who you love) no one's gonna believe me when i tell them that i'm leaving no one's gonna stop me from being all alone nobody can stop me from ruining my life no one can ever love me like you quiet little deaths talking about wrath leaving little space open another window let it all out hold it all in quiet little death of the earth and moon and stars and everyone pretty little game pretty riding slack hell is where it's at quiet little death of everything (you know who you love) i never wanted a second chance i never needed a second home i just wanted to be alone i just wanted to be alone (i was attempting to put into words what our love was)

(turn 'em off) (off) (off) (off) fear i'm slipping war i won't win uphill's coming losing light turn off the streetlights iceskatting traffic burn down your mansion turn in your cameras (turn 'em off) (off) (off) (off) legs don't erase me i'll leave you forever iceskating endeavors to stave off the tremors we don't go outside to keep the devils in we don't go outside to keep the devil in (off) (off) (off) (off) (off) (off) (off) (off)

mary talk to me i have seen your marks on the fountain in the garden where i lead my walks in the morning the evening stalks the night the night i drove 128 miles back home freezing at a gas station chilled to the bone i called up some friends they kept me upright i rang your phone once but thought of it twice i rang your phone once but thought of it twice i rang your phone once but thought of it twice i rang your phone once but thought of it twice i rang your phone once but thought of it twice i thought about crashing every chance i got but the thought of my silence while my friends just shot the shit a pretty world of trouble i too often find myself in i find myself dancing on my grave somewhere it can’t snow watching the clergymen lower me slow shotgun funeral at discount price i rang your phone once but i thought of it twice i rang your phone once but thought of it twice i rang your phone once but thought of it twice i rang your phone once but thought of it twice i rang your phone once but thought of it twice god knows of the times i have searched for them and god knows of the times i’ve hung my head and cried how i cried i cried speak to me now can you give (show) me a sign and waited alone for a humbled reply i should’ve tried i should’ve stayed the night i should’ve stayed there and held you tight should’ve stayed there and held you tight should’ve stayed right there and held you tight should’ve stayed there and held you tight should’ve stayed right there held you tight should’ve stayed there and held you tight should’ve stayed there and held you tight but i kissed you goodnight and booked a midnight flight down i-64 at the speed of light the speed of light of light the speed the speed of light of light the speed the speed of light of light the speed the speed of light of light

there's a sad song playing there in the speakers above the stairs i asked him if he's alright and can he meet me there tomorrow night someplace we can be alone he'd never talk to me over the phone he slides down to the cold cold tile the wall swallows his backbone says is this really all there is first it's a sigh but then i guess it's a kiss i was in love but it doesn't last i fell for him until the feeling past i check his pulse and his heart beats slow it doesn't click with the ebb and flow he says he's tired almost everyday he's tried to kill himself in every way "i am tired of being so tired" yeah he said just what he said his tears are soaked up rainclouds that were misled to his head "i am not an evil person i feel i'm not even human at all" he said just what he said then i patched him up and sent him home while there's a lock keeping our hands pure there is a noose hanging over the door he's tracing veins up both my legs with his clenched fists on the dance floor when you first saw me in the light you blew a kiss and turned ghost white now there's a heart necklace split between us i said there's lots of pain between us there is pain that shifts between us round and round my little head you pulled me down beneath the covers and dragged me out of bed and i check his pulse and his heart beats slow open his chest and watch it glow he says he's tired almost everyday he's tried to kill himself in every way "i am tired of being so tired" yeah he said just what he said "i wake up and i'm still here and things could be better if i was dead "i am not an evil person and i don't mean myself no harm" he said just what he said and i pulled the sleeves down off his arms breaking out of silence leaving in the madness lift your voice so quiet troubles me with sadness

i don't wanna i don't wanna go to bed i can't face myself i can't be alone at night speaktome speaktome speaktome speaktome i don't wanna i don't wanna go to bed i can't face myself i can't be alone at night when they hold you when they reach their broken arms when you look back do you wanna turn around speaktome speaktome speaktome speaktome IF I EVER GET SCARED SUPPOSE I LOSE MY WAY AND I NEED YOU SO MUCH HOW WILL I KNOW YOU'RE THERE? HOW WILL I KNOW IT'S YOU? HOW WILL I KNOW YOU'RE THERE? HOW WILL I KNOW YOU'RE THERE? i had visions i had people speak to me singing softly softly singing me to sleep

the smell of someone who loved you fading out of your clothes waking up in the bed where you made love the sense that you're not alone forgotten by your mind forgetting what's gone wrong this is way out this is a way out i once was blind but now i see see you posing in front of me you take my hand you make me whole i won't go back i can't go home mournings start in the evening emotions compiling in this isn't the brink of collapse this is i'm doing fine (i'm doing fine, i'm doing fine) wasting my time and potential jogging in place to my end passing cars lonely children at bus stops this is i'll be alright (i'll be alright, i'll be alright, i'll be alright) i'll be alright i once was deaf until you sang and shattered the glass entrapping me i felt a touch my eyes went low i won't go back i can't go home it's calling me it's calling me it's calling me to sleep

the dream i had last night drinking and driving in nyc i spun out an intersection i had your number on a picture of me i woke up and my heart was racing you left a note on your bedside table written on a napkin in pencil i had no clue what the fuck you were saying so i called you from bed lying naked covered in sweat and gritting my teeth because my back is fucking killing me you picked up after a couple of rings but it was really your prank voicemail i left a long one and couldn't go back to sleep back to the art of getting dressed in the dark i felt confident in my poetry i know it's hiding in the closet waiting to kill me in my sleep the way i'm wound round everyone's finger maybe a fist is crushing me you know i can't wait for it to happen you know i've been waiting on it all week when's it gonna end come on now i know someone's got a plan for me i know someone's got a plan for me i know someone's got a plan for me i know someone's got a plan for me i know someone's got a plan for you and me someone's got a plan for me i know someone's got a plan for me someone's gotta have a plan for me someone's gotta have a plan for you and me like when you peek around the corner you don't expect to see it but you know that something's coming you know and you can feel it i know there's something out there for you and for me i know there's something out there it's bound to set us free you've gotta hear me out now i've been stumbling through whatever and i know that something's out there and it can't wait forever and now there's not much time and there's so much left to say there is so much left undone i can't bear to leave you this way so you wanna know what i think is pathetic it's the way you've drawn me out to be like i've been running out of time lately and there is nothing else to me we've been going nowhere so fast now you lunged your arms out round my neck you caught me cutting through one of your shadows where there was nothing decent left i woke up alone in my room looked at the clock a quarter past three you enjoyed my death in the dream poking holes into pieces of me i sit idle shocked in headphones i work my days away til i sleep singing the art of getting dressed in the dark i feel confident in my poetry i know it's hiding in the closet waiting to kill me in my sleep the way i'm wound round everyone's finger maybe a fist is crushing me i know my hometown like a wasteland and the souls that corpse the roads i could lie down in the street tonight and be some place better i know it'll be so much better i know so much better i know i'll feel so much better i know i'll feel so much better i know where they won't know my name they won't know my name they can say they remember me but they won't know my shame i called out to the dark spanning in front of me i cast doubt on the love that is given to me and killing me the stars became all of the people switched into dust flowers sent back buried in canyons and litterbug tombstones die in the valley always looking forward to i wanna be forgotten i wanna be i wanna be i wanna be i wanna be i wanna be alone i wanna i i i i i i i i i i i i i the dream i had last night drinking and driving in nyc i spun out an intersection i had your number on a picture of me (so you wanna know what i think is pathetic)

tonight's our last date the next time i see you might just be at the alter dancing shoes don't you falter scanning the faces of a family crowd the light and the pressure makes a noise out loud this isn't it oh no there has to be more there will be more waiting when you pass through the door this can't be it oh no they said there was more there you go with your hands cupped nailed to the floor tonight's my last night the next time you see me be laid down in a suit staring holes in the ceiling there isn't a goodbye this isn't a lullaby we stick to the script or we don't exist at all there can't be a second chance you don't get a last dance the water's too high you accept that you're drowning and die so don't expect to be dreaming and go searching for meaning you pull your last breath and pray you'll wake up in your bed where the trees mark the clearing you bury your earrings your clothes, house, and money the things you cannot bring tonight's my big night can't help feeling so old took a nap on the couch felt my body get cold i took the phone off don't deserve a good answer you get wasted in the night out to dinner with a dancer this isn't it oh no it's such a sad feeling when you know in your heart that your lover is leaving this isn't it oh god it can't be true they run off with your heart and you're left all blue tonight i'm tired something good on the tube i look round my room and i don't see you and i check all the closets and i check the upstairs and i'm ripping up carpet finding pieces of our hair but there's nothing else left there's nothing else there there's nothing else left there's nothing else there there's nothing else left there's nothing else there here's nothing else left there's nothing what i miss is the taste of a kiss and the buzz in my throat when i was singing you to sleep i'll never stop missing it i see you in my dreams you sit there and smile you won't talk to me so i go through my night i try to make you happy i would lay down my life just to see you happy because you saw me as a person when no one else did when i was an object when i was a kid there was light in favorite moments we can never forget we can never forget we can try to til we die but we can never forget never forget never forget never forget where the sun hits your window i'm praying you'll see me the wind in the sky i am praying you'll hear me in the water at night i am praying you'll feel me the beat of your heart i pray you'll still love me when you sang me to sleep when you sang me to sleep your words caught fire when you sang me to sleep sang me to sleep sang me to sleep your words caught fire when you sang me to sleep when you sang me to sleep when you sang me to sleep your words caught fire when you sang me to sleep sang me to sleep sang me to sleep your words caught fire when you sang me to sleep will you sing me to sleep will you sing me to sleep your words catch fire when you sing me to sleep sing me to sleep sing me to sleep your words catch fire will you sing me to sleep will you sing me to sleep sing me to sleep will your words catch fire when you sing me to sleep will you sing me to sleep will you sing me to sleep your words catch fire sing me to sleep i don't wanna be alone i don't wanna be alone i don't wanna go to bed i don't wanna be alone

i could fill a book with everything i'll never say out of words they close the curtains lights take me off the stage down the river later on i'll try to make some sense of this never shut my mind off i never shut my mind off i could use some time off i could use some time alone everything you said to me is locked inside my memory i'm looking for the key so i can set us free i don't care if there are other people i know i'm enough for me from this point on i was the sleeping bag.