[voicemails] "hey doug it's chase, i'm at the store, do you need anything? just pick up." "-- the young healthy to be asking for change, so i went up the street to the gap where all the yuppie college kids shop and i was there until about five-thirty or six, scored about ten bucks, me and my girlfriend, you met her. anyway, we got some money from her parents, so we wanted to see if we could stop by, see if we could get a fix. so just let me know if that works for you. i'm back." [mercy] to dust we shall return he said his fingers on my forehead i watched a spider crawl out the open window where the breeze came through and brushed through my hair i swear to god i’m bigger than who put me here i’ll never let them take me if i can resentment filled an undeveloped part of me and that’s when i woke up stuck in my bed struggled and twisted up my extremities corroded and destructed at my demand i fell right through the mattress face first into the fireplace and asked god to forgive me if she can then there was a lightbulb and my hands cracked a thin sheet of glass what smelled like flesh and sliced an artery came hurdling towards me i reached out and held on for as long as anyone can the object took me all around my understanding and made me leave behind true love and holding hands before dumping me into the sea collapsing possibilities that lay in front of me and seriously fucking up all my plans ripping and tearing the molecules clean off of me filling my body with sirens and stitching me backwards to expose any and all impurities till i was accepting the whole indignity i asked god for some mercy if she so chose [wherever you are, wherever you're going] when can i see you again the good times always end too quickly holding on to a piece of string tied tight around you and me holding on to a piece of me desperate immeasurable times you don’t have to love a ghost forever there’s nothing that’s stopping you now wherever you are wherever you’re going hold onto a piece of me wherever you are whatever you’re gone wherever you are whatever you’re gone hold on [black shoes / french exit] that's me in the black shoes i missed the open alarm i'm down here at the processing station and i can't rest in piece i have mulled it over it's been a very long time since you've seen me but you can't see me now i've got a plan for you everyone had a plan for you look at how they turned me out i drew the short straw sit and wait for your savior complex to kick in and feel emotion feel no motion underneath of your empty seat bones rise to feel complete i lose sleep under homes where beds sit empty like you like me like i like you yes it's been a very long time [who were we last night??] it’s not for nothing but just so you heard birds fall right down from the sky sometimes “do you think we should leave?” she barks with a wink i know it’s been a while so i beg for a drink as i turn to the keep he says “it’s on me” and i smile it gets harder to tell did they send him up from hell when he takes on the wheel and the road starts to feel like another poor joke just between you and me it’s only a secret and one i don’t plan to keep and now there’s not much to say take my sunshine away and i’ll cry you know that you hurt me you know what you did i have more than just memories they’re burned into my eyelids but i’m more than just sex i’m one hell of a lover now don’t worry spring fling you’re sure to find another i turn back to the bar the man shows me his scars where the knife took it’s place it’s written on his face his friends and their children he says "don’t let them in now kid you’re done in for the night you have no business loving anyone ask yourself the question who were we last night?? it is more than just pain it is with you everyday until you die"

[i hope you feel dead inside] we won’t give away the solution but we’ve identified you as the problem what you don’t know can’t hurt you but you know me what’s so fucking nice about it if you gotta keep it in a frame could i be the one to steal your last name if it was me and just me maybe you’d get it but i know what you’re looking at in the frame [return signal / silence] where they crashed back on the waves the collision course was intercepted reroutes us nearing timeless into the woods to be here with me i wish you could see it too i wish you could breathe this in if only you could be his face was like the sun shining in all its brilliance he finds himself in the desert swallowed in the light of the casino tunneling under the covers and letting the whites of eyes dry he fumbles a dirtying letter and falls into pieces in front of me endless light oblivion return signals clawing in endless light oblivion return signals clawing in to die here with me i wish you could feel it too i know you who you are if only you believed me silence silence that’s all i wanna hear silence silence that’s all i wanna hear silence silence that’s all i wanna hear you know me that’s the way i like it [heart thief (everytime you are wrong, i will be right)] head hangs out the window dead dog one come in come in dead dog one come in everytime you are wrong i will be right i close my eyes in the wind muffled sound of raindrops let tears form in your eyes come into my room and shut the door everytime we align i’ll be right outside you’re losing my mind love is on the line and i’m on fire and you’re on fire lets spit each other out [untitled track (2)] it gets colder and colder outside, i used to sit at this window everyday and watch people live. why do i feel like i’m missing when there’s no one around? i smile at myself and wave hello, and then goodbye. the ice continues to grow on this window. now i watch myself die of hunger, and then gluttony. i smile at myself and wave hello, and then goodbye. and goodbye to you and all of my friends, i love you all so much, you’ll never know... oh all the things you’ll never know. [open me] pots of red roses across the street looks over the courtyard where we used to meet you kissed me there on the stairs and unlocked the door stepping inside you touched me static light on the satin sheets you spoke so soft, so quiet and so sweet dead lover crawl into my eyes cut into veins open me a channel so impure now when i walk past your empty house i keep my head down or fix my blouse little things to do on my walk can distract from the pain i listen for the thunder in the astral field it circles me and i know you’re real as real as you were for a while before they took you away gone lamping a string of varmint run across the road and the wind begins to roll over my face in an unusual way open me a channel so impure but you’re safe here that’s for sure i’ll give my life for yours